back to real life

The time has come for me to go back to face the real world out there. It's time to leave my bubble, my comfort zone. And I'm about to confront the real life very soon. Hope it'll be much better compared to the last time I was facing. Hope it won't leave a trail of traumatic working experience as before. Hope it's time for me to say... the world is my oyster now!!!

what next?

I've been enjoying my life for these last 7 months. It's the greatest times I've ever had within the last 7 years. Well, actually there are also some other great time during those years. But in terms of work-related experience, I might say that the current situation is the greatest.

Yup, yup, I'd been working in a wrong place for the last 7 years and now I finally become a free agent. Yes, I am free as a bird. But now I'm facing a quite confusing period. On the one hand, I'm still enjoying my invaluable free time. But on the other hand, a question starts to occupy my mind: what is actually my plan to carry on my life? Or in short, what next?

And that, my friend, I really don't know the answer.

why do i miss him?

why do i miss him? that i couldn't answer.
why am i waiting for him? that i still couldn't answer.
why do i expect him to appear? still, i couldn't answer that.

if i couldn't answer that, why do i bother to miss him?
goddamnit, THAT I COULDN'T ANSWER.

for all office workers out there...

I have these very interesting lines I quoted from the movie "Office Space". And somehow, I found it very brilliant and so bloody right ;D

"Human beings were not meant to sit in little cubicles staring at computer screens all day, filling out useless forms and listening to eight different bosses drone on about mission statement."

Man, I couldn't agree more with you!

I'm looking through you

I'm looking through you
where did you go?
I thought I knew you
what did I know
you don't look different
but you have changed
I'm looking through you
you're not the same

Actually I'm not sure whether I got this Beatles song right or not, but I think I did. Uhm, well, at least I think I did. But I'm sure about one thing... you're not the same!!!

how i hate nights

i must admit that i hate nights so very much, it makes me hard to close my eyes. frankly, i don't have the faintest idea why i don't like nights. could it be for the darkness that scares me? or i just don't like the idea that during those time most people are fast asleep while i'm not.

but then, why don't i just go to sleep if during that dark time people are supposed to take some rest by slumbering? that's because i have this terribly wonderful sleeping problem. it seems like wherever i'm locating (or should it be 'located'?), i'm always suffering from this jetlag problem. i just can't get my night sleep that easily.

and now it becomes a lil bit clearer why i hate nights so freaking much.

suicidal tendencies

supposed I am planning to commit suicide, then what method should I choose to make my plan runs successfully?

uhmmm, let me see...

1- I have no guts to slit my wrist. it must be so bloody painful. so, I'll leave this method out.

2- hanging myself up somewhere looks like a cheesy idea of committing suicide. let alone the length of time needed to be perfectly dead. I'll say no to this method.

3- what about lying down on a railway track waiting for a train to runover me? no fuckin way, mate! the idea is so outdated and even worst than method #2.

4- drinking some insect repellant like baygon? yuckh! I am not stupid enough to do that. the taste must be like hell and it is also time consuming. just drop the idea!

5- I am too chicken out to do freefall from 10th floor. the idea of flying free in the air for a second only to make my body and blood crushed and scattered all over the place really terrifies me. so, I need another method.

6- I reckon drugs would be quite alright. but I can't afford overdosing, too flipping expensive for me! again, I've to leave this method behind.

7- ...

dammit! I am running out of ideas... all I need is just a method of committing suicide that is quick, comfortable and painless. I never thought that it would be so hard.

please, don't get me wrong. I am not planning to commit suicide whatsoever . I am just trying to offer a comfy, easey-to-do method for those who need one. ftd!